Meet my anxieties

My list of anxieties can go on and on and on. Hm, where should we start?

Let’s start with Bill the Body. Bill has body image issues and sometimes that starts with his diet. Sometimes he’ll neglect the calories required to fuel him. When Bill does eat, it’s more carbs than veggies you know what I mean? Beyond eating, Bill is also self conscious about his body. Bill wonders - what if my body isn’t good enough to make a baby?

Next is Marlene the Medications. Marlene worries about her medications constantly. Marlene wonders - should she take them? Should she not? How much and when? And now that Marlene is planning for a baby, there is an additional layer of anxiety. Marlene is anxious about how much medication she should take and when.

Last but not least, meet Ursula the Unknown. Ursula encapsulates the rest of my anxieties that don’t have specific names to them. She is like the miscellaneous drawer you use to keep scrap paper, pencils, and pens that no longer have any ink left to write with. In this case, Ursula stores the rest of my anxieties in them.

Ursula creates a huge smokeshow almost every night and puts on a fancy top hat. She orchestrates Bill the Body, Marlene the Medications, and other nameless, faceless, superstars like “will-I-won’t-I-have-a-baby” thing.

These are all of my anxieties. A short list right?!

I’m addressing them one by one by seeing my personal trainer again and getting my body and mind back into a healthy shape, which also motivates me to actually EAT and eat healthier. I also see my psychiatrist tomorrow so he’ll finally tell me what the plan is in terms of weaning off the medications.

The one thing is that I can’t get rid of Ursula the Unknown. What she can’t see coming is that I’m working really hard with my psychotherapist to tackle the anxieties and thoughts I have at night like being worried that I won’t be able to have a baby, or that my body isn’t good enough to have a baby.

I’ve learned some new tips that I can share with you later. Leave a comment below if you want to know now, or you can always reach out to me in the many, many ways here!

What have you done to tackle your anxieties? Let’s connect soon!

xoxo,

Joanne